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Patricia. i love the sea but i hate the beach. big difference.


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the picture was found on friendster. waw.



Thursday, March 29, 2007
your smile; i'm over it


MY HISTORY CLASSES ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRR

I'm now craving for Chocolate Ecstasy - the most sinful chocolate cake I've tasted. I totally need to start cutting down my junk food intake. Is fast food junk food? Well, it is fast food and therefore not suitable for people trying to maintain their weight. I have been eating fast food for days now and I feel so unhealthy. I'm always craving for the wrong foods and I reckon I've lost my self-control. I honestly cannot resist the temptation of good food you can get just like that (snap). I need my robot now to tell me what to eat. I'm also not a big fan of gorging myself with vegetables. Fruits, I don't mind.

What do I hate about having nothing to do? Duh, having nothing to do. I'm so used to getting bored yet I still hate it. Especially in the afternoon. I can't wait till I go out of town with my family. Perhaps to somewhere in the mountainous regions or somewhere like the beach.

April Fools is just 'round the corner and I don't care. You don't either.

I'm so done with wishing
you were still here


1:50 PM
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Monday, March 26, 2007
makes me feel like saying


If my blog had the Cbox censoring feature, my blog has it too except that I do self-censoring instead of automatic censoring. And my blog doesn't use asterisks to replace the vulgarities but letters. Isn't it cool? It is cool but not as satisfying. I've decided that I cannot prevent people from reading this blog. It is an online blog. A web log. A blog.

Never mind.

Last night, Michael, Lance and I were busy taking quizzes on Blogthings.com. It was hilarious. But then I was so busy studying after the party I couldn't even watch my adshfjhdslfajlsfa Grey's Anatomy. I was also too tired to watch, I guess, since I fell asleep on my notes. Now that I am free of homework, I still am not allowed to watch the latest episode of Grey's Anatomy. Just recently, my dad gained interest in the series and began watching. So, tonight, I will finallyFINALLY get to watch it.

My next class is on Thursday. It is also my final class. I want to thank my parents for not pressuring me. It is a great relief they aren't because crash course simply means pressure course. If I received extra pressure, I'd possibly *dramatic voice* contemplate suicide or something. Anyway, my parents never really pressured me.

I am finally done with this entry. It took me over an hour because of all the distractions :x

so there's still a chance you'll hate me.
don't worry.
i'll treat you with so much love there's none left for others.
okay, there's still love for others.
but you get what i mean.
i won't do anything that'll hurt you.
i'll love you with all that i am. ((:


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Saturday, March 24, 2007
jgkahdfjghlsdfkg


I'm not supposed to be blogging and I'm not supposed to be online. You realize that I changed my skin, right? Well, I couldn't find anything better so I just chose this. If you're using the same skin, NYEH, I don't care :x I've been studying all day. I tagged a few people (including myself) because I just couldn't stop myself from clicking 'Mozilla Firefox' and tagging people.

I haven't named my rabbit. I don't even know the friggin' gender. Don't get me wrong - I love rabbits. I just have reasons for disliking it so much. Or rather the person who gave it to me? My point is, I dislike it for a reason and if you wanna know why, just ask me through msn.

Last night was Dindin's graduation party and Nikko told me this 'joke'. What do you call the cross-breed of a bulldog and a shi tzu? Bullshit. AHAHAHAHAHA
Is it funny? I find it funny.

BitLord says: Grey's Anatomy S03E19 78.1%
I'M SO EXCITED!

We're celebrating Jeremy's birthday tomorrow. I don't know why we're only having it tomorrow but at least we're having it, right?

And I still have that mound of homework very untouched. It is not physically a MOUND of homework. It is merely a list of homework. Mr. Dela Peña is really forcing examinations down my throat. I have an exam on Wednesday about lessons I haven't even learned! I will be learning them on Monday. And on Monday, I have an exam. But I'm studying for that one.

Sorry for the messy entry. I'll try explaining in my next one.


8:48 PM
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Friday, March 23, 2007
the sky could fall tonight


I'm so tired and so online. I'm quite sure you noticed that I've been making an effort in every entry. An effort which is to make the entry long, anyway. I don't think I can afford that tonight because I am so tired and I want to sleep. I'm just here to update and stuff. Yeah, my sister is now telling Mr. Tan Chee Tong through video call that I am blogging and I blog really-really long blaaahhhblahhh not tonight.

I am in need of feel-good music. Yes, I like rock (and roll) a lot but then most days, I find myself tired and um, cranky. If you do not know what feel-good music is, you can take it literally because it just means music to unwind. Okay, so if you know any nice artists, please recommend them. I have a tagboard. Use it. That was a friendly command. Hah.

asdjfhlajsdhf I am loaded with homework (once again) and I have my 2nd trimestral exam on Monday!!! Gah.

LAST THING. MadTV is so boring. Miss Swan isn't there. TV is boring. One Tree Hill is the nicest show.

Oh yeah, the last-est thing. I have to take my medicine. I almost forgot! Maybe I don't need a sexy robot that roams around my office anymore. I'm still getting that dog robot, anyway. OR OR I could like get a rabbit robot! Yeah, so that it doesn't get heart attacks anymore. Oh, that is so cool. My medicine clock (?) is so jasfhlahsldfjhalsdj. Good night!


2:19 AM
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Wednesday, March 21, 2007
I can be your hero, baby.


Please don't ask about the title and how it's related to this entry (blah blah blah blah).

1. It's never related to the entry.
2. I'm listening to the song.
3. Like the previous entry, it's not related to the entry and I was listening to the song that time.


I had class for an hour today. I learned about the propaganda movement before American colonization but I promise not to bore you about it :) And just if you're wondering, the Philippines was also colonized by Japan. Like after the Americans did. The Japanese colonization was the darkest period in Philippine history. But then again I promised not to talk about it. So now I move on to my next thing to talk about.

Patricia Karunungan has moved to Livejournal! [Leena, I know you don't like Livejournal] I almost created an LJ account for myself recently but somehow couldn't be bothered to. I wouldn't be having a tagboard or anything. Links don't really matter to me because they're only for reference. But I will comment Miss Patricia if I want to comment. OR there's some magic hidden way to insert a tagboard somewhere there and I just don't know about it.

Oh yes, I'm feeling much better. Ever since I went to see the pediatrician (should've done that the first day I was sick) and bought the medicine I needed, I've been feeling a lot better. So this is just a portion of my entry to those who care ^^ HA HA. Somebody's gotta remind me to take one capsule tonight, right before going to bed. It's too difficult to remember these things, myself. I should have like an assistant. In the future, when technology will rule the world (haha) I will have a robot assistant. Maybe like that acronym robot (P.A.T.R.I.C.I.A.) that will roam around my office. That's so sexy but I do not think I would like to watch my sexy robot... Of course I'd want to just sit and watch my robot (sexy or not sexy) for about a two weeks after purchase but when technology rules the world, I will no longer be living. Everyone will be living above land to escape the ant people. Oh, the thought of owning a robot really excited me. Maybe I'll still reach the time of the robot dog. That would be as fun.

Isn't it funny how I was just talking about remembering medicine and now I'm so happy 'cause I think I'm getting a robot dog? And not the robot dog for KIDS. The super mega high-tech one that hasn't been invented yet.

ajhldfjahlsdjkfhlasdhurluan I am so excited. Well, I better go to bed now (MEDS!!!) because I have class from 10 am to 3 pm. Isn't it great how I have to sit my butt down for 5 jdswefh hours? Yes, shut up.

THANKS FOR READING. (no sarcasm here)


10:49 PM
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Monday, March 19, 2007
mama, we're all gonna die but we're NOT all going to hell.


Yesterday's mass was good. I listened to the priest and watched the choir. The choir singers weren't so united. I guess they like their own individuality. The funny part in mass was when we were supposed to sing amen and they showed this on the screen:
A__MEN A_______MEN A_______________MEN A_____MEN A______MEN A______MEN!
HAHAHA.. It was so funny and only my mom and I were laughing. My sister didn't really see it at once but yeah, she thought it was funny too.

I just got home from school. It was pretty much alright except that I am once again loaded with homework. I haven't even read my sfhajfasfh Noli Me Tangere summary and El Filibusterismo is the sequel. I haven't read that one either. And I am supposed to pass him my reflection on Wednesday. I can't believe they never made a movie!! See, they never make movies out of very important books. If I go to Mr. Dela Pena (no n with the squiggly on the laptop) on Wednesday and tell him that I don't have my reflection because I was too lazy to read, he'll give me that smirk that says 'oh-aren't-you-precious-you-jfhadfhalfjads'

That's just what I think but he's probably thinking what a relief it is since he will no longer have to mark some silly reflection. Just the thought of reading it makes me want to hurl. You know what else makes me want to hurl? Atreyu. But you didn't need to know that.

So, anyway, have I blogged about our new puppy? I don't think I have but my sister sure did in her old blog. It's a male puppy and his name is Memphis. My dad wanted the name Memphis because it's after one of the Happy Feet penguins. He's a mini dachshund (if you don't know what that is, it's the hotdog dog but the mini kind) and really adorable. He has a pillow that he sleeps on and doesn't poop on. It's so cute ^^

Miss Sarah has been uploading pictures of me. I am thinking of uploading videos of her. That Christmas video of the three of us (Miss Sarah, Jeremy and ehem me) dancing. Fang Ee didn't get to see the video but I know he wanted too. Muahahahaha.

Another one of my longer entries (bow)


2:14 PM
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Saturday, March 17, 2007
Bleeding mascara


I'm back! Someone told me that people love my blog and it just had to disappear so I couldn't help feeling a little full of myself. I thought of all the people who get bored and read my blog and don't tag. Well, here I am. Back.

Singapore was great and I'm happy I got to see my friends. We watched Primeval.. It's a lousy movie, if you ask me. I was so disappointed at the end. If it's one of those 'be aware' movies, then alright. But I'm not going to Africa to see Gustave the crocodile. Er, yeah. And I only found out the crocodile is GUSTAVE at the end when the said 'Gustave still lives at the something river today.' I thought Gustave was the shaman since the hunters were talking about people working for Gustave.. Never mind. Just don't waste your money on that movie. Unless you're looking for a movie with vicious reptiles and hunters with well-defined man boobs.

So, today is the fourth day I'm having fever. No, I HAD fever this morning but not now since I took this pill that's making me sweat like crazy. I have a towel in my shirt. Behind. I skipped one session of MR. DELA PEÑA'S CLASSES and the following day he called and said he couldn't be there because of some graduation party. And yesterday, Friday, I went and after, I got fever because Idon'tknowwhy.

Maybe I got sick because I didn't eat in Singapore. Well, of course I ate but I only ate 4 proper meals. I went to Healthway Clinic with my dad today and the pediatrician was so nice to me. Her voice was so soft and whispery but in the un-creepy way. She was so nice I thought she was gonna swallow me alive. Um, she didn't.

I got my medicine and then my dad and I looked at nice chocolates (truffles, pralines and other exotic-sounding chocolates.. I forgot) and my dad asked me if I wanted one. I said that I only wanted the white chocolate truffle (one only) and he asked the lady how much.. P69. I know I have Singaporean readers so that's about $2. If I have silent readers from other countries, I don't care about you guys because you are silent readers and you people don't tag. Silent readers. Pffft. So. Who would buy a little piece of chocolate the size of my eye for that much money? I could buy other stuff.

I have heaps of homework to do and I have yet to begin working my way through the bottom of the pile. OK, I know it's not really that much but I haven't had this much homework in ages. OH YAAAA I HAVE TO READ EL FILIBUSTERISMO AND NOLI ME TANGERE WHATEVER THOSE TWO TITLES MEAN. Technically, I don't have to read them. Just the summary. I don't know why Mr. Dela Peña is making me read them. I think Noli Me Tangere is about the Spanish colonization. Okay, I will not feed you any boringness about Spanish colonization.

I swear if this computer shuts down on me now, I will cry. I haven't had this energy to blog since aaajsldhfljashdlfjhalsdjhf weeks ago. And I haven't updated my Multiply since forever. I wanted to add Happy Walk pictures and that was in February. I am neglecting Multiply. I promise I'll update next week. I do not care if you do not care about my pictures. If you care about my pictures a lot (unusually), I will only think you are weird. Except if you are in the pictures and I promised I'd post them, then it's okay to care a lot.

Do you see what I mean by energy to blog?

The colours are kinda boring and I miss the old skin. I saved the old template but I want to change the colours and I do not know how. Let's see if this skin will work for.. ever. Okay, I hope I write entries this long every time. Or at least entries that tell a lot more than just.. stuff. Nyarrharrharr. I love you.


4:57 PM
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Friday, March 09, 2007
SUNNY SINGAPORE


SINGAPORE IS SO FUN :D I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE PK AND LEENA TOMORROW AAAHHHHHH.

Yu Ling, Nadiah, Brenda, Starnia, Mao Jie & Guan Siang came over a while ago. It was fun.


10:56 PM
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Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Untitled


I just completed labeling the entire map of the Philippines. There are a gazillion islands and regions. I had to draw and label, alright. It isn't as easy as you think it is. You probably think drawing a map is simple. But no. Not simple when you live in the Philippines.

I'm so tired and I need more milk.


12:32 AM
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Monday, March 05, 2007
Jeremy, this is for you


When Sarah and I were still little children and you were born, Mom told us you'd be different. This memory is a vague one yet I remember the way you looked. You looked so peaceful sleeping. You were different, indeed. But I liked you the moment I saw you. I understood Down Syndrome but I never really cared. I finally had my baby brother :)

My classmates in third grade would laugh at mentally retarded children and holler 'mongoloyd' at them. I was so furious I stomped my way to their desks and said 'I have a baby brother who has Down Syndrome and his name is Jeremy. Being different is not a bad thing!' Then I'd cry to Mommy.

My parents once told me that when Jeremy's an adult, he may not be living with us anymore. He could be in a home for the elders or something. I cried so hard and promised that I'd find a husband who would accept Jeremy and he could live with us and stuff.

I didn't think I'd be able to write this on Thursday- I wouldn't possibly have time.

I know you can't read this and you don't know what a blog is but Jeremy, you've made me a better person and I love you very much.

Happy birthday :)



9:44 PM
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Saturday, March 03, 2007
human after all


My lola (mom's side) isn't so well. We think she had a mild stroke so please pray for her :'(
She's a good lola :(


6:06 PM
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it's time to dance


HELLOOOOOOO I didn't blog for a day! I still consider this part of March 2 but technically, it is March 3 so..
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY YU LING! I MISS YOU BUT I'M SEEING YOU SOON :D

I just got home from Michael's. The whole gathering wasn't really planned well but we hung around. It was fun. Michael and I played this game on fasco-csc. I found the games kinda annoying but somehow addictive. Try the games if you're bored or whatever.

Grey's Anatomy episode 18 will be aired in America next week on Thursday night.
Sexy Back has been stuck in my head since this morning (2nd of March).
One time, my mom and I were bored out of our minds we started modelling and crap. It was funny.

AAAAAAAHHHH Fall Out Boy will be performing in less than [number here] HOURS! To PK & LP: take pictures, okay! :D

I am craving for macaroni and cheese.

The end


1:41 AM
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Thursday, March 01, 2007
I'm bringin' sexy back!


I'm done with my homework [bow]


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