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Patricia. i love the sea but i hate the beach. big difference.


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the picture was found on friendster. waw.



Friday, September 29, 2006


I JUST CLEARED MY DESK.
THE FIRST TIME IN SO MANY YEARS. (THREE) BUT STILL. I SPENT FOREVER CLEARING IT. IMAGINE HOW BIG IT WAS. IT'S CLEAN NOW! I CAN STUDY PROPERLY NOW. BUT I'M TIRED.........

SO MAYBE LATER.
So much for a neat desk.


11:32 PM
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I just got back from school. I had to submit the art project to Pon Chai. And I also had to submit the dnt thing. I saw my friends :]
Okay, Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays, Thursdays and Fridays are school days. It feels weird to not go to school on those days. They're meant for school.
I'm really bored now and I miss my phone. It kinda got confiscated. Long story. So please don't text or call. And don't ask me why it got confiscated :s

I like sour mentos.
Oh, Qayyum, if you're reading this,
NO PANTHER?? Hmph.


8:08 PM
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I've got nothing to do here at home.
I suddenly find myself longing for someone special. But never mind.

I'm really bored. I woke up at six today, thinking I was going to school.
I don't really feel like blogging. Listening to sad songs make me want to cry.

You've begun to feel like home;


4:15 PM
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Team,

The winds have settled down and the rains have stopped. Almost in a flash, the Manila facility was inundated by 3 hours of heavy rain and strong winds in one direction, a 30-minute lull during the eye of the storm, and another 2 hour lashing in the opposite direction. The site was right in the dead-center of the storm with 130kph winds known as Typhoon Milenyo. No matter how well we planned, nature took its own course and the typhoon arrived 12 hours earlier, right when we had a full-shift in operation. While this may have seemed like a disaster, it provided a silver-lining.

The building has a parapet surrounding the 2nd, 3rd, and 4th floors. With the heavy rain and strong winds, these parapets got flooded easily and as they flooded, they began to overflow into the building. The first area affected was the general office area on the 2nd floor. The HR and Finance offices were literally flooded with water, so computers, files, and other items had to be evacuated quickly. All available hands had to scoop up the water to prevent it from spreading further. There was a human chain working hand-in-hand, passing full buckets of water to the drains and empty buckets back to the front lines where the water was flowing in. Some folks had to brave the winds and keep the drains clear to stop the flooding which despite the containment efforts, reached the production are in the wafer probing and die attach area. As this area was put under control, many other leaks also had to be dealt with in the 3rd floor, in the stairwell, and most of all, on the 4th floor where the facilities equipments had to be shutdown.

Except for a few felled trees around the building, the damage sustained is very minor considering what could have happened had there been not enough hands on-site to stop the flooding. All said there are many experiences that will be talked about over and over again as today's events are recalled. One thought that stands tall in the face of this setback is the tremendous teamwork that was demonstrated today in facing this crisis.

Thank you to everyone for their courageous efforts, teamwork and boundaryless behavior to keep our site intact.

Sincerely,
Elmer Lapena
Site Leader
PerkinElmer Optoelectronics, Philippines

Yep. That's my dad. The letter isn't meant for me. Haha, I just wanted to post it. Anyway, the friggin' Milenyo won't leave. Yet. It's dark all over Manila and I'm really worried about everyone :\

Exams are coming. No, really. Mother Tongue's tomorrow. Ahhh I'm so lucky. Hah. Well, I'm not going to school tomorrow. If I do, that would be to pass up something. I'm feeling excited about the exams. Well, SORRRRY. Ciao x)



3:19 AM
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Monday, September 25, 2006


Hello Sunday.

We went to early mass today at 11am. They were selling food at the canteen for this charity project and so we had lunch there. The tables had pretty flowers on them.
So my mom took a dozen or something. And I held the pretty flowers. I accidentally inhaled the pollen grains and some of them flew onto my face and arms.

Then I started having allergic reactions, thanks to the flowers. Anyway, I took some medication and I'm alright now. Looks can be deceiving. Okay, whatever.

We did some grocery shopping and went home. My sister and I watched Hallmark channel. There's this movie called Mom at 16 and anyway, it's really touching and we cried so much. Hey, I'd never cried that much before. Watching a movie, I mean.
I'm going out for dinner later.

Classes tomorrow, Monday.
Oh boy.


1:44 AM
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Saturday, September 23, 2006


It's been long since I last blogged.
I don't really have that much to write about.

Whatever.
Anyway, I'm up early today. And I'm still sleepy. But I can't get back to sleep so now I'm stuck chatting with Teoh Guan. Not that it's a bad thing. He's the only one online right now.
I'm so bored. I've been through this ahhh-I'm-so-bored thing countless times.
I don't have anything to say right now.

Byeee.


6:34 PM
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Thursday, September 14, 2006


We're at the wake now... I'm rather bored.
I don't think writing this all down would be of any use to me.
I'm probably writing to get things off my chest. But then again, I'm not writing. Literally, I mean. Well that's just lame, Patricia.
I don't think I plan to start talking to myself.
My parents were making this slideshow of pictures my grandfather had before he'd passed away and I was in many of them.
I was a faaaat little girl. Hey, I can't be little. Okay, little as in short.
I'm finding this blogging thing a bore when I've done it more than once today. Blogged, I mean.
Oh wow, I've typed over a hundred words. I guess that's a bad thing. Shows how bored I am. A hundred isn't that long, actually.
Oh how I wish my parents let me sleep in. I would have been snoozing at this time. I can't sleep in my dad's car. Why? Oh, cos the roads are rocky. No, really. They're amazingly, pathetically, disturbingly rocky.
I'm inside the room of the place where the wake is. Get it? Never mind. Anyway, I can hear the people roaring. Laughing, I mean. Why are they laughing?
What's so funny?
The white casket?
Ha ha.
My ten-year-old cousin is drawing in his notebook. I don't see him this often. In fact, these two days = the most I've seen of him in my entire life. Do you get it? You don't have to understand this crap, you know. You can just move on. Well, his name is Justin and he has feminine facial features.
I'm having cramps now. :(
It's killable. Heh.

.iie goiinng tuu stopp lerr lahhs.
BUAIIX!!


8:39 PM
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My parents wouldn't let me sleep in. So now I'm up at this time. Yeah, say I could be more thankful I'm not attending classes right now. You DO know why I'm NOT attending classes, don't you?
I'm sitting in the car now while my parents are at the memorial park. I don't know why exactly but I'm feeling slightly bored.
I had some shanghai rolls for breakfast. Some= three pathetic pieces.
I'm still hungry.
Relatives say I've become thinner but I actually gained weight :D
Wait, you haven't seen my as a fat little kid with braces.
I used to wear braces. Then retainers. But the retainers broke so now I'm back to square one. What a waste of money.

Now Jeremy is trying to get out of the car. There's a road next to us with fast-moving trucks. I hate garbage trucks. Do you know why? No, you don't want to know why.
54% of the battery left.

I'm getting my w550i on Friday. Yaya's getting it from Wisma Atria today cos I can't (duh). My sister's flying here on Friday and she's taking it along with her so yay.
I'm listening to Chasing Cars on iTunes now and I'm beginning to miss Singapore.
I want to go home.. and study perhaps?
I need to study. No, really. My grades are still fine but they aren't improving.
Don't tell me I sound like some psycho maniac who's obsessed with improvement.
Sorry. PMS.
I wonder what everyone's doing in school now.
Hmmm, I suppose they're all having lessons. Except for the graduating classes. Prelims. Nyahaha. Okay, that's just mean. Good luck to the graduating classes.

I want hot chocolate. With tiny marshmallows<3


6:04 PM
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Today's events were unexpected.
Way unexpected.
I thought I'd have the usual school day, CIP after and go home.
But no.

I was having D&T when some guy called me down to the general office to return my mom's call. I knew something was wrong. Jeez, I was only soldering my wires.
Brenda followed me to the general office and I waited for some guy to get off the phone. I picked up the phone. Dialed.
My mom answered the phone and she asked me if I was okay.
Yeah, I was okay. Why would I not be okay?
Then she asked me if I could go home cos there was something wrong.
I asked why.
She said something happened.
She said my grandfather had just passed away.
And that's when I started crying.
So picture me standing there.
On the phone.
Crying.
Hard.

He was supposed to be taken to the hospital. He needed to go to the bathroom. Maybe he got a heart attack and knocked his head. And fell to the floor. My dad carried him to his bed. And he murmured. And he breathed his last.

Yeah, anyway, I had to skip CIP and go home. My mom, brother and flew to Manila. I was pretty enthused to fly Singapore Airlines. The service is good and I watched Just My Luck. It's an okay movie, I guess. And orange juice tastes disgusting after brushing your teeth.

I have zero grandfathers left. I probably shouldn't put it that way. I hate having to attend wakes and funerals. Oh yeah, when I saw him in his casket, he was smiling :)
No, not the creepy hey-I'm-gonna-haunt-you-tonight kind of smile.
I don't know if you get it, but it's the peacefully asleep kind of smile. If you get what I mean.
It's okay if you don’t get it. No pressure.
I'm having a sore throat now. And colds. Brentville is stuffy. I kind of threw up too.
Maybe you didn't need to know that. Okay, you didn't. I refuse to BACKSPACE. Heh.

Well, I'm missing school. I'll be back in Singapore on Sunday. Nighttime? Hey, I haven't done my homework. I have an excuse so I'll be given extra time, I hope.
My parents are sleeping now and I'm still on the laptop.
I'm kind of having mixed emotions right now. I don't know whether I should feel happy or sad or confused or heartbroken (er..)?
Anyway, I'm going to miss school. Miss as in, you know. The one more on the affectionate side.
I know many of you don't like school. It's because of studying. I don't enjoy studying that much. Okay, I like studying juuust a little. And the friends part, of course.
I'm really missing them right now. When I left school today, they were all giving me hugs :)
I wanna go home and watch Oprah with my sister. The rerun of the show where Oprah helps the hurricane Katrina survivors have new homes.

I'm a bit sleepy now and I'd just gotten back from the wake. I'll get ready for bed soon. I hope my mom will let me sleep in tomorrow. I mean, later.
It's like two in the morning now.
If I were still in Singapore, I'd be having my beauty sleep (ha) now.
Yeah right, just kidding :D well I would have been sleeping. Really deep sleep.

I was here like, a week ago and I'm here again. In this stuffy little Brentville. I don't really like the name, you know. Brentville. Urgh. I'm sure you have better things to do. Than read all this nonsense about my dad's neighbourhood.
Well I'ma get ready to sleep now.
I have to go for the wake again tomorrow. Attend mass, perhaps. Funeral's on Saturday morning …
I'm sleepy. And I made it to two am. I should be getting a reward for this, shouldn't I? Nah. Up to you though :D

Goodnight.
Lovesssssss.


10:11 AM
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Thursday, September 07, 2006


So I'm back in Singapore.
I'm very tired.
Very sleepy.

AAAHHH.

I'll rest.
Happy birthday Benjamin Kee ;D

Loves.


7:11 AM
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Tuesday, September 05, 2006


The doggy is on my lap.
Not the dalmatian one (:

And it IS a big deal! :D


2:47 AM
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I slept. I don't think that was a nap. I think that was the continuation of my sleep last night. And I woke up at like.. one-something.
I miss Singapore. Being stuck at home is kinda miserable if you have nothing to do. Well at least now, I have the computer (yay). And I can use it. And use it.

Eating + Sleeping = HEIGHT AND WEIGHT
Leena, freaky?
I don't get why it's freaky.
But anyway. Eating and sleeping is damn bad. And I need more ice cream. I've been bumming around the house for quite a long time and I should be getting a reward for this !

I have the same skin as Weilin. Sorry dear (:
I'm planning to change soon but I'm really lazy.
Ahhh.

Well.. It's raining really, really, REALLY hard here! Kinda creepy.
We're having dinner soon.
And my posts are getting short.
I miss sunny Singapore.
Is it sunny back there?

Loves.


2:20 AM
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Monday, September 04, 2006


I'm up early.
And I'm online.
But I'm the ONLY one online.

YAY.
):


4:58 PM
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I'm staying over at my cousins house right now.
There is no internet connection in my dad's house.
It's sad, okay.
There is no landline.
He lives in Brentville. Small house. But it's okay. Quite nice.
And my phone is going kuku. I can't use it. Blahh.

My relatives have a new dog. It's a dalmatian puppy. It's damn cute and I kissed it :D haha. It bit me though.
I don't think I'll blog much for tonight cos I'm kinda sleepy.
I'm usually asleep at this time.
Or just lying down.
And texting.

Stupid phone.
I think I'll go to bed now.
I'm sleepy.

Goodnight.
ILY.
Oh yeah, happy birthday Kyle.


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